Hey everyone,
Welcome to the new people. :) Thank you for joining me... and I promise I will have something done soon. The wheels have been turning, I've just been occupied in so many other directions of late. Most of my fannish energy has been focused on cosplay related stuff and I don't seem able to divide my fandom focus - it's always fixed on one main thing! heh.
Anyway, I know this is horribly egotistical of me, but I have this compulsion to continue recording here some of the most touching feedback I receive. I love writing and I love these characters and one of the loveliest things about writing fanfiction about them is being able to bring pleasure to other fans - to create something other fans can enjoy. Any artist will tell you part of the pleasure of creation is the power you have in evoking emotion in the audience and whilst fanfiction may be a tawdry, simple and cheap artform, it's always created by and for those with a passion...
Anyway, I'm rambling and getting airy-fairy so I'd best move on. I just wanted to say thank you, thank you VERY much to everyone who reads and enjoys, whether they leave feedback or not, but also to these people for leaving feedback that so revealed what you got out of my work, because it's one of the best feelings in the world to read it. It means a lot, it strokes my ego, it just creates a wonderful sense of community and collusion as well... and YES IT VALIDATES ME! I HAS VALIDATIONS ON TEH INTERTOOBS! IT'S ALL ANYONE COULD ASK FOR!! ;)
Arkham Asylum: Tainted Love:I've just finished this fiction and, um... (words, hmm, need better words!)... what can I say? It's absolutely fantastic. A truly delightful read. I've come to believe that your writings and versions of the Joker/Harley relationship are the 'real' story (in comparison to Paul Dini etc.'s versions, which are now just really, really good stories.) Congrats.It is pretty special to have someone have so strong a reaction because I think the majority of us agree Dini's handling is sacrosanct! Not that I actually believe I trump the Master himself, but I like hearing this sort of stuff!! ;)
First Time:Lady, you write seriously outstanding, absolutely top-notch smut. Really, truely, stupendously great smut.
From what I know about the Batverse (not too much), your take on the characters feels just right. My guess is you should probably be authoring these comics yourself.
And I think I did mention about the smut... Smut seems to be my forte. Should I find this depressing? I don't know. I love writing smut! :) And I love being told I should be writing the comics! <3
Reading all of your work makes me want to crawl inside of your delightful brain and drown myself, only so that I could die in pure genuis blissful amazingness.XD
Soliloquy:And all this time HaHaHarley was simply waiting for that ending, that perfect ending, which makes the whole story so wonderful. All that time of sobbing uncontrollably, only stopping when I can't see the screen anymore and screaming "But she does love him! SHE DOES!"
There really was a sense of waiting, of wanting to stop reading because it's too sad, but being drawn back inevitably like a moth to the flame, all the way through this story. You can't stop reading because you're waiting faithfully, because you just know that it's going to be worth it, that it's going to happen and when it does you can't help but laugh aloud with joy! The perfection of Him makes any waiting worthwhile. Yeah, you know, I'm bowled over by having someone have that strong a reaction. I LOVE IT. It's an honour and it's gratifying and it's powerful.
Oh my god. I cried and I laughed and I stayed up 'til midnight reading this when I needed to get to bed. I have an ache in my stomache and a bittersweet taste in my mouth. Just amazing. I've read a bunch of your stories by now, but you really, really outdid yourself with this one. Same as above. If I can make someone cry, then oh wow, then I'm beyond ecstatic.
I love this chapter so much.
You write as if you've lived it.
The last part about intimacy I completely relate to.
Brilliant.Hm. Yes. That may be because I have, to a point. I consider that to be extremely high praise, if it resonates to that intensity.
One Evening:I'm still crying. I'm trying to find the words. I don't know who I feel more for.
I cried for Harley as her face was being beaten and her knee was being smashed.
I cried for Joker as he cried either with remorse or grief.
I cried when he made her hot chocolate and the gesture did speak louder than words. (Very clever!)
I cried when they made passionate love - without his usual foreplay.
I cried when he snapped back and he was "evil" again.
I laughed when he got the last word with a joke!
All these feelings. Why do you do it to us?!
I'm still not completely sure why he was crying. Not cos you you didn't explain it. But cos it's not determined in my own head. Was it for Jeannie? Or for Harley? In a lapse, he said Jeannie. He beat Harley. He's not a woman-batterer, but he's exacting his dominance. She said 'Eddie's' and it arose such anger within him. She knew this would make him so angry cos she's his, no-one else's. She could have protected herself, stopped him from hurting her. But she didn't. She's strong. But it's like she let him do it. She has nowhere to go now. She can't. Mentally and now physically. "Oh well, better stay here.."
He was forced to give in to that one about Jeannie. She might have one up on him, so he has to restore the balance.
Then he cries, cos he feels bad? Or cos he lost everything and turned into this evil monster? He brings her ice but throws it anywhere. She revells in the attention he's paying her. If she'd just kept quiet, she wouldn't be the object of his attention. She's wearing them with pride. As if he's showing SOME kind of remorse. Or just marvelling at his art..
He makes her laugh. Then it's like nothing happened.
Then he makes love to her cos she's his woman, they've made up, then he coddles her like a child. Then he's evil again cos it's like, "It's over! It's done! We're back! Give it over! I did it! Aren't you happy enough?!"
My head is a mess! Was this your intention? Lol. I'm so confused! Grrrr!!!!This comment is love. Again, making someone cry - it's a heady power. I shamelessly relish it and am grateful as well.
I loved it. I loved all the emotions that spewed out periodically. I tried counting them; I ran out of fingers, haha. This was just simply wonderful. It made me love them even more, if that's possible. Please, never stop writing.:D
Two-Bits:I've never been so scared while reading anything! God, that was, frightening and sick and hot and oh god I was actually afraid to cough =) I was really on the edge of my seat =)
My taste for kink runs to spankings and such, light stuff but this.. This fits so well into their slightly psychotic relationship..
You write them so well, it reads like a movie. So realistic and so very true to character, it was amazing, all your stuff are.Hee! XD I love scaring people too. And really, how much higher praise can you get than "true to character"? Though props to
zhinxy for this too, as she was a contributor to that fic!!!
By His Hand:You know what makes this piece particularly amazing? It's the fact that my own mind sees how twisted Joker's treatment of Harley is, yet at the same time I understand that it's necessary for her (which is probably even more twisted!). Harley is at the point where being comforted in the traditional "healthy" manner would do absolutely nothing for her. It's sick, yet I understand why it functions. I can only imagine how unhappy Harley would be if she were ever truly rehabilitated. It's a dysfunctional, unhealthy relationship, but she's happy. I end up in circles all day just thinking about it.
There are few writers out there who really understand their dynamic. You're definitely one of them.:)
Yeah, this post was pure self-indulgence. It makes me feel good. I'm sorry, I know it's kinda shamefully egotistical. But being part of something like this, in this way... it's just an uplifting feeling and getting this feedback means so much to me. <3